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Thought of the day!

Sanjay Sabarwal

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From: “Sangita Poudel” <sangita@zibabeauty.com>
Date: November 18, 2010 9:00:43 AM PST
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Subject: Thought of the day!

Food for thought!

When there is a big change of energy which affects our lives, we often label it as “bad” and cause ourselves sorrow, pain, and suffering by resisting that change.

 But you always have a choice.

In the Universe there is never just one way, and you are never trapped with no way out, no matter what has occurred.

In every circumstance and moment of your life there are two paths available to you.

The two paths are the positive and the negative, and YOU are the one who chooses which path you will take.

                                                                                                          “The Secret’’

Thank You!

Sangita Poudel

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Journal, Myself

Perhaps

Sanjay Sabarwal
Jemal Y

Perhaps the window to my soul closed a long time ago.  perhaps, I have been dreaming a long time, and now I am awake.  Perhaps what I thought to be my world, my life was nothing more than a string of moments and memories put together so I can say I lived.  Perhaps I am the homeless man on the right, fantasizing I am the writer on this post.  Perhaps, perhaps, perhaps.

 
Those 7 letters have become ingrained in me, telling me nothing, give me no direction just a vague vision of what is to come, but perhaps that’s all an illusion.
 
I sit like that man, looking down half asleep, hoping, wishing, prayer for perhaps a better day, life or illusion  or perhaps not.
 
I do not know where I want to be.  I do know where I shall be.  I just know that perhaps it will all work out
 
Perhaps
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Food for thought!

 

You can change the path of your life from dark to light or from negative to positive.

Every single time you focus on the positive you are bringing more light into your life, and you know that light removes all darkness.

Gratitude, love, kind thoughts, words, and actions bring light and eliminate the darkness.

 

Fill your life with the light of positivity!

 

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Mechanical

Sanjay Sabarwal
By SinnerX

There is no time.  Just me and her. The only quietness on her face while the room buzzes with small beeps indicating normalcy or a call for help.  It has been far too long since I stared at her for so long.  Her breathing gentle, accompanied with small grimaces of pain when she moves too suddenly. 

I only see her face, holding onto my coffee with dear life, focusing my gaze on her body and willing for the stranger inside her to be gone.  I imagine being lazer like and just destroy all that is foreign.  I gaze and focus on her willing my love to pour into her and eradicate all that bothers her.  I imagine feeling her with so much joy there is room for nothing else. 

I lean in closer to her,  filling my vision with just her face, imagining beautiful eyes full of life, laughter and the knowledge that everything is going to be alright.  I stare hard, hoping/wishing/praying that somehow the cancer can teleport into me (Star Trek like).  I stare, willing the enemy within to just go away, get away from my love.  Shoo!  You don’t belong here.  I stare and I stare.

There is no time. 

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It makes no sense to those who have met me in the last 10 years.  They just know the Jovial, card playing, hard-drinking Sanjay who is a lawyer but doest practice, has a great family business and has no real need to work.  It makes no sense to them that I want to write.  Actually, it’s not really a want, it has become more a need.  With my recent stroke and the travails of my girlfriends disease, it has become the only place I can be really true to myself. 

It’s in those 30 to 45 minutes that I can really hear myself talking and thinking.  Everything drowns away and it’s just me and the words.  In that time, I am neither happy, nor sad just a writer with his tools trying to make sense of the world around him.

That is why I write: to live, to breathe, to feel, to just be.

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Drowning/Overwhelmed/Liar

Sanjay Sabarwal
by Jemal Y

This picture perfectly describes my feelings these past few months.   I cannot breathe due to the hypocrisy surrounding me nor can I rely on the friends I thought I had.  I cannot save people from their mistakes nor can I  can trust them when they lie to me about them.  I cannot be the perfect boyfriend or always present.  I cant, I won’t get it right, I know that but still I keep trying to move forward, to keep moving so I don’t drown in the despair of sorrow and helplessness.  Gotta avoid the tears, the realization that our lives are no longer headed on the paths we had planned on, no! counted on.

I wish I knew where to start. Perhaps shake the one that cheated or the one that got cheated on and then lied to me about ending it.  Or do I  shake the one with a selfish boyfriend who couldn’t even call or text his cousin while she battles the big C but has time to meet his girlfriend or yell at someone’s family because I am overwhelmed and feel utterly alone and helpless?  How many people do I stop talking to?  I realize that everyone’s an adult and the problem isnt them but me.  I am drowning myself.

Because the truth is, I am sick of people, their lies, their insecurities, their willingness to be fake or care when they only really only care about themselves.  Sick of being around people who say they are there but in reality are only there because it seems the right thing to say but not do.

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