I have managed to avoid thinking about it for the past few weeks, but now with it around the corner, I realize that our lives about to change dramatically. Not badly, just differently. One thing’s for sure, love and kindness have to fill our moments before we sink into the depth of anger and self-pity. That’s not easy to admit or say to someone who is so close to my heart that it feels that I am being operated on instead of her. And I wish could spare her the emotional pain of feeling incomplete.
I want her to know that having her in my life and spending the rest of our lives growing old together while bickering and fighting about the silliest things is what matters. That is the life I want with her. I want the small moments of silence that we have when we are driving long distance, the quick kisses when we are away from each other even a few moments, the shared laughter among dear friends, and the constant questions about each others state of mind. That’s what matter. That’s the day by day I want and need. Nothing else matters.
And yet I know we are entering a dark period, and the next few weeks will be a test. The real question is will we able to handle it, or will we both sink into a self-pitying quicksand that neither one of us get can get out of.
Only the new weeks can answer that. For now, all I can do is pray that she sees us as I do: together, forever
From: Sangita Poudel Sent: Sun 11/7/2010 10:01 AM To: TeamZibaBeauty Cc: Ritu Mahindru Subject: Quote of the day!
Food for thought!
The future is created through our past thoughts, words, and actions. The future is the reaping of the seeds that we have sown in the past, whether those seeds are good or bad.
Each sustained thought, every word we utter, and every action we take is seed we will reap in our future.
To create a beautiful future, make as many of your thoughts as possible good ones, speak good and kind words, and make sure your action come from goodness.
Your future depends upon it.
“The Secret”
Thank You!
Sangita Poudel
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I don’t know when it came, but suddenly guilt was my constant companion because I hadn’t sat in front of her. instead of being ignored, she now constantly spoke in my head, demanding no begging for my attention. The old excuses no internet access or let me sleep in for more minutes no longer satiate anyone especially her. Instead, it’s a constant dread what I wont get down. Now, the worry is what words will be lost, and what seemed to be useless now seems priceless. Each day used to carry the thought of just getting through and living, but now feels empty if I dont manage to splash some thoughts on the blog canvas. What didn’t enter my mind now permeates my being.